
Typically, I'm not one for dwelling on events of the past and how things could have been different. Life's too short for all that regret stuff.
But on occasion, I take a step back and look at my behavior and begin to regret my actions - and, believe it or not, my words.
This past week was extremely stressful at the office. I worked more 'overtime' hours than I have in a long time. Now, as y'all are probably acutely aware, I love my job. And I tend to praise myself for my career path even more when there's so much work to be done that I lose all track of time through my packed schedule.
However, this week, when my crazy schedule matched the SO's, I'd had enough. And as you probably guessed, I took it out on him in mega-bitch fashion.
Girlfriend FAIL.
Oh, but it gets better.
In my typical cynical fashion, I wrote this post, which, in turn, put the SO off to doing the things he had planned for this weekend.
NOT my intention. And I feel terrible about it.
The last thing I wanted was to inhibit him from doing anything he actually wanted to do.
But of course, once again, I acted without actually thinking about the implications. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
So although I've already apologized for these things profusely in person, it seems only right to dedicate a post to the words and actions from the past week I whole-heartedly regret. What can I say, I feel terrible about this inexcusable behavior.
And now, I'm sitting here thinking that I really should have taken the opportunity to observe this President's Day holiday with a little extra QT - and sleeping in, of course.
Oh well.
I suck!
-A
p.s. I don't want to forget about the positive side of the situation. This weekend was fabulous! Had a productive Saturday where I got caught up on my chores and attended two yoga classes, my parents came into town for a quick visit, and most importantly, I got to spend some much needed, uninterrupted time with the SO. I'm one f-ing lucky girl!
3 comments:
don't get so down on yourself - i could write a novel on things getting turned around and ending up not being my intentions at all.
you're human, it's ok.
eh, just keep swimming!
alexa - yeah, but given my stubborn nature, if I think I need to apologize, it definitely must be true.
matt - keeping head above water somehow...
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